i noe u all are sick and tired of reading all my sad stuff. but i really have nothing else to write. i cant force myself to write happy stuff when i AM sad. i cant even force myself to sing happy songs.
i know there are ppl who loves me out there. my family, my best friends.. i just wanna let u ppl know. i love you all too. thanks for consoling me when i am down, sharing my happiness when i am.. well.. happy.
my mum called yesterday night and i told her all the stuff that i blogged here last night. about my sadness. my homesickness. my loneliness. and she consoled me. adviced me. and i was crying. not loudly. but silently. she doesnt even realise that i am crying. she said everyone have days when they are sad. dejected. lonely. depressed. you just have to overcome it. and move on with life. when i hung up. i threw the telephone aside and cried. as in. REALLy cried. loudly. under the blanket, hugging my toy. i cried for.. half an hour? then my parents came home. and my dad noticed that i cried.. because of my red eyes and nose la. then my mum consoled me again. and from then until now, she treated me especially nice. omg i love her so much.
my parents are out again but they say they will be back around 2 something to take me out. shopping.
and i cried this morning too. when i recall what happened ytd.
and im crying now as im blogging this.
i will try to do as you say des. i'll dry my tears. forget abt yesterday. be happy.