i have been trying SO HARD to stop myself from thinking about it.
i have been trying to keep myself happy.
and i have to say.
i've done a great job.
but everything i see now seems to spell 'ipod nano' in front of me.
example bus. nowadays have that STUPID ad saying what.
'have you been eyeing that stylish ipod nano? now you can take it home!'
or some stupid shit like it.
HELLO. is it THAT easy to take it home? give me la.
usually i dont feel really sad when i look at that ad.
but today.. i dunno what happened.
something just got to me and i felt like crying.
only i didnt la. i was in public. =.=
and now. my sis listening to her ipod.
and as if that isnt enough, she's happily singing along to it.
there's so many new songs that i ripped from cds and koped from friends.
you may think i am stupid.
you may think that since my ipod is lost, what is the point of koping new songs?
you cant put it in anyway.
but i keep telling myself not to think that way.
i keep thinking.
oh my ipod will come back. then i can put all the songs inside and listen to it the whole night.
i kept thinking the optimistic way.
but the truth is slowly coming to me now.
i am not going to get it back.
and my mum is not going to buy a new one for me.
i guess the truth always hurts.
my mum and sis always thought i am not sad about it.
they always thought that for me, it is nothing.
cos it is not my money.
they have not noticed how depressed i have been.
in fact my mum scolded me before.
she said that i dont give a damn about it and can still act like i dont care.
they just dont understand me.
oh man. i wanna cry.
CANNOT. i must STAY HAPPY.
but just let me be depressed for just a night.
let me cry it out.