atc's coming.
i dunno whether i can survive back or not.
havent blog for a thousand years. this whole week is filled with guides. like duh.
sunday&monday
had ballet as usual. did freaking grand jetes. and pose&double pirouettes.
there's some ppl in our class who always laugh at those ppl who do their excercise wrongly or funnily. ie. me. i just wanna say. it is not our fault that we do wrongly lor. neither can we stop ourselves from doing it funnily. i know you think you are more superior compared to others, but no. you are not. we are all in the same class. just because you can do the exercise doesnt give you the right to laugh at ppl. if you think you so good in ballet, then go join the advanced 1 ppl la. since you love them so much.
tuesday
had full day training. i tie the gadgets until my hands wanna die already, but its still not tight enough. =.=
wednesday
went to tm with xiaowei liying and emily to do lecture book. [see how all my life is filled with guides?] the book's half done. im so stupid i forgot to bring my emblem =.=
after that went to watch the guardian with my darling liying.
finally watch a movie after a month or so. (:
it is a total escape from the extremely busy life now.
it may be the last movie i watch in my whole life since i dont think i will survive atc.
today
went back to school AGAIN for guides AGAIN. we are supposed to meet at 9, but i came at 745 instead. cause i dont wanna go sch myself. SO i was doing my homework [ see that! its a miracle. lh actually did her holiday homework!] in the canteen with all the cs/band/whatever cca ppl staring at me.
whats wrong with doing homework in school?
then jennifer sara qianting yijia&zhenling came.
really pissed me off la.
i spent the whole time since i came back from tm yesterday to trace and cut the stupid crusoe words until my hand can die of fatigue already, and today they just casually slammed me with those words 'lihui how you cut one uh? the words all not standardised leh.'
wl. i already tried my best la. you so pro you cut and trace yourself la. i put all my effort in doing to words and now you just say. no its not standardised. we cant use them.
standardised standardised standardised.
its freaking me out that every single piece of shit we do have to be exactly the same.
human are not perfect. thus, the stuff we do cant possibly be ALL PERFECT as well.
yes i understand that we will get punished for not standardising everything. [although i seriously dont see any point]
yes i understand that we are all afraid of being punished until we die.
but amidst all these why cant ppl just appreciate all the effort we put in when we do our part?
why do ppl always care about the result of our work only?
just now you all [you know who im talking about] were cutting out and tracing the crusoe words just like i did. and i totally dont see any point in redoing what i already did. you all took hours just to finish that thing. if three people take hours to finish, how about one person?
that's how long i took to do that
and today you all just throw me with those heartless words.