i suddenly miss my childhood days.
not that im very old now la.
now that i think back, a few years ago, those stuff that made me sad, angry, doesnt really mean anything to me now. those things that matters back then seems trivial to me now.
i remember when i was 3 yrs old, sitting on my parents bed in my old house and reading my nursery books.
when i was 5/6 yrs old, i was always the group leader in kindergarten and i had to carry the buns and porridges or whatever to the table and distribute the food.
how my mum will always test me on my multiplication table when we are walking to the kindergarten.
when we play in the playroom, pretending to be hairdresser and all that. i was even on magazine once ok!
how i was always the left out one when me and my then friends [esther, adeline.. damn i forgot their names.] will linger around and act as story book characters when our parents chatted.
im serious. im always left out by them. im always the bad guy, or they will forget me and dont give me a role to play. this goes to show even kindergarten kids know how to bully classmates.
when i was primary 1&2, i always waited for my sister to dismiss so we can go home tgt.
i rmb when my tr assigned me to sit next to this girl called chanel to help her in her chinese.
i always make fun of the words in the hymns when i was p2.
haha i think i turned abit rebellious in p2. nvm.
i rmb me and my p2 best friends [ arin and samantha] were so happy that we are posted to the same p3 cls.
i rmb my hurt when samantha totally ignored me for no reason. that was the end of our friendship.
i rmb in p4 i keep changing best friends. now when i think about it, none of them are really my friends. not true friends. just someone to go recess with.
more recently.
i rmb first day of p5, i promised my p4 best friend [francesca] that we will meet each other during recess. but i went off with my p5 classmates instead. i felt so guilty after that.
i rmb during first term of p5 my tr [miss ha] changed my seat and i sat next to sheena. at first i was so angry cos i dont wanna leave my old seat. but in the end sheena became my real best friend for the whole of p5&6.
i remember me and my dad will play this stupid lame game that involves touching our noses. now it feels like the distance between me and my dad has grown so big.
i remember me and my sis will play playstation together for hours.
sometimes i wonder how i can cope in the past w/o any computers.
i think i should cherish my teenage life now. what seems to worry me now alot may not be when i grow older. when im an adult in the future, and i look back to life now, i will love it. i will want to go back to life now like how i want to go back into my childhood.
so cherish life ppl. no matter how difficult it may be.