guides is terribly tough today.
we had our our usual pt, but had evaluation first time in our lives.
ok first time so long and tiring la.
we had to stay at pumping position, legs raise and twinkle position for dunno how freaking long. the first time my hands and legs and stomach really cannot tahan already and i fell out, but not even 1min later they change position.
so basically i fall out also no use.
legs raise is much better. and twinkles.
anw snrs were practically shouting at us.
it is only today that i realise that the whole of lat year, the reason i will grow to like guides is because our snrs last yr take care of us alot. we didnt do anything ourselves, everything is planned for us. we just go there, do whatever we need to do, dismissed and go home.
sec2 is going to be the toughest guides year ever. i can already feel it.
the sec4s were right.
we werent as bonded as a jie like them.
we werent always seen together like them.
we didnt give out so much time as them.
sometimes we feel we already put in the best effort we can, but snrs think we can still improve.
what should we do?
how should we react?
should we lie to ourselves and quietly listen to snrs scold us?
i mean. what else can we do?
its hard.
sometimes i feel that i need to speak out for myself no matter whats the consequences, but rationality always get the better of me.
maybe i should think about this another time.
im tired >.<
but we all cant escape this for long.
soon theres gonna be another pt, another evaluation.
by then hope we can figure out our thoughts.