idmi made me lose focus.
because for the last few days, the only thoughts i have when i go online is 'oh no. i have to chiong work or else cannot sleep'.
and im glad that happened.
i really cant imagine if i have to chiong work and feeling depressed at the same time.
but now idmi's over.
of course im happy like crazy but.
this also means that mood and feeling every night goes back to routine.
the very first night w/o idmi, im feeling like that.
zzz.
i really dont want to care anymore.
is there like, a remedy to cure myself?
i guess the truth is, the more you dont wish to care, to more you force yourself not to see, not to talk, the more you cant help yourself but continue caring, continue watching, no matter how much you hurt inside.
time to change a skin.
i think i will serach for years before finding a nice one.