3J.
and guess what, i hardly know anyone.
esther's nice, and so is cassandra.
at least i know some guides inside.
usan and emily.
i sense trouble.
jealousy.
i never knew i had that much of it.
almost made me feel like appealing out.
ohwells.
its all fated.
i thought i wont be like that.
i think i can never be normal.
makes me even more confused than i already am.
i hate my life,
its just stuck everyday at endless camp prep that doesnt seem to have much improvement.
everyday is the same old routine, every night is that same old feeling of weirdness.
to make things worse, i lost my only source of motivation to get me through the day.
its ok.