havent posted for days.
because i dont do anything interesting at all.
i finally understand what it truly means to be lost for words. when you really feel like saying something to someone, to break the awkward silence, words just wont come out. and when you finally said something, its so stupid that you regret saying it almost immediately afterwards.
thats how it is.
does words just magically appear when we're talking to someone that we know very well?
is words like a tap, when the tap is switched off, thats when no more words come out.
words are how we express emotions, our care, love, anger, frustration, anything.
i guess when those words stop, thats when people stop expressing altogether.
i dont make any sense at all.
seriously.
but words.
do they come by so hard?
do i have to work so hard to keep them, just to let them slip away again?
its not worth it.
everything has a beginning, climax, ending, not just LA films.
every single relationship we have with people will go through these three stages.
for me, beginnings are always interesting.
its fun, makes me crave for more.
and always make me expect more, as if something's gonna happen.
climax are the point of time when you are satisfied with how things are on now,
when there's regular contact,
the point of time that's the happiest.
when all you want is just to maintain the way the relationship is in currently.
ending.
do i have to explain more.
always disappoints,
never fails to happen.
im not lecturing LA.
but life is like that.
just like that.