i know i probably said this a hundred million times to many uncountable people,
and those people are very sick and pissed by this,
but yesterday i really felt it, stronger than ever before,
why do i screw every single thing i do.
homework, tests, studies, guides, outreach, behavior, attitude, ballet, family, relationships, time, emotions,
life.
why dont i think through the consequences of my actions before i act them out.
why dont i think through my words before they spill out.
why dont i,
why cant i.
im evil.
i know i am,
some things are funny but causes the hurts of people.
and im really sorry.
to be such a disappointment, i can sense it.
i know, kr's inspirational words told me not to keep thinking i screw.
and believe me, there really are times when i feel life's ok, that maybe everything will be just right.
but when it comes, it just comes.
yesterday's (or friday's, since its supposed to be sunday now) was terrible.
and i dont emo all the time, contrary to what people think.
at least i dont look like i dont, which is good enough.
and im really not emo sometimes too, inside or outside.
so yea, sorry once again.
oh sry to teoee too. i know you said before you like, but you said it at night, so you may have multiple personalities. so i should stop, and remember myself of the consequence.
and i didnt attend service today ):