sometimes i just have the sudden urge to scream at myself.
what a weird mix of emotions.
frustration, freaking out.
people dont understand why i behave the way i do.
actually, neither do i.
i think i am sort of a perfectionist.
not in studies, of course not.
i gotta stop thinking that totally illogical theory.
i know i've grown to become so expressionless,
so.. weird, no other words to describe.
but think, lh, think.
what, or who, made me the way i am now.
because im at a stage of rebellion now?
perhaps not.
i wonder.
do normal people get pissed with themselves when they wake up late in the morn, lets say.. 9plus?
do normal people get so upset when they have to miss school for a day?
do normal people use three whole days to type their essay and not getting anywhere?
i seem to wonder alot lately.
life is like, a machine.
a push of a button, and everything could be changed.
when it decides to stop working, it stops.
afterall, friends are still the most impt.
no one, nothing, should make us forget that.
tell that to myself, pls.
' is it still a runaway from home, says:
look, people screw up as they go to school, but you screw up when you dont?'
cassandra got it all right.
school is screwed, but im somehow attracted to screwed stuff.
or rather, screwed stuff gets attracted to me like a magnet.
i wanted to type this like, an hr ago.
but due to overdose of slacking, im doing it now.
yes slacking is the silent killer.
and if anyone of you are at, this point of time, confused by what i've typed, its ok.
because none of the points links.
i must do very disgustingly in PEEL aka, source based ques.
im gonna be such a noob.
NOOB.
that even sec1s can do better than i can.
relax, chilll.
how many times have i heard this today.
what a long post,
one that doesnt make any sense.
because im still in my mix of emotions i guess.