happy birthday to you, you, you and you.
there's so many people's birthdays.
as usual, mind blank.
i was wandering aimlessly through blogs on monday,
seems like im so unsociable.
to quote esther,
sorry, i can't say i love 3J yet,
and throughout level camp, i've been isolating myself from the rest of the class.
i know that.
i know that i've always been sitting alone in the bus either sleeping or blasting my own music.
i know that during meals i haven't been sitting much with the class.
i know that i don't play cards with them, take photos, have fun.
because why? i don't feel like it.
this is not good at all.
sometimes i wonder, did i used to be like this?
was i more outspoken, friendlier perhaps?
i think i was.
and i won't ask myself what happened to me anymore.
because all i get is the same old answer.
one that i really don't want to be reminded of.
this is crazy, insanity.