once again, I should have gotten used to it.
I should have known I'm not going to make you happy for even a day,
that no matter what I do, I'm never going to live up to your expectations.
that whatever I say, do, react, is bad in your eyes.
sorry, for not being the daughter you want me to be.
and I really wonder how our lives are going to be once my sister gone to uk.
quarrels everyday? scolding, nagging every single waking minute of my time at home.
how did it become like this.
I know, my fault.
it's always my fault.
everything is because I took a turn and changed for the worse.
but can you at least stop and think,
can it also partly be because of you too.
it's not going to end like this.
things are going to continue, getting worse each day.
and I just want to say,
I have no idea what's the next step to take now.
actually why am I even posting this.
not like she'll actually read it.
oh well.
sorry for not being able to recognise me anymore.