I don't want to break down all the time.
at nights, trying to go according as planned but failed.
when I can't help but fall asleep in front of the comp.
trying so hard to do what I want but nothing goes right.
in class, catching up with daily lessons.
the total blankout when having tests and quizzes.
when everyone around me seem to be in another world,
and I'm slowly struggling in my own.
I want to tell myself that I tried.
I want to see some achievements after my efforts.
but why do things get worse.
what's the whole point of schooling.
I don't want to blank out during EOYs.
I don't want to sit there, writing some nonsense on the paper when everyone seem to get the answers.
I don't want. but I can't help it.
because these days aren't easy anymore.