been through some blogs while waiting for 篮球火 to load.
ly blogs with one word, at most one sentence, with an emoticon.
xw blogs with a variety of topics.
teoee blogs multiples a day, where I can relate myself to (most of the time).
jenn blogs with a variety too, but mostly about one topic.
teoee says I blog super random stuff, other people wont know what I'm talking about except myself. like speaking in riddles.
she also says I should not dwell too much on stuff.
should we trust our gut instinct.
if we assume stuff the way our mind portrays it, is it usually true?
I'm confused.
secrets.
even my closest, dearest friends dont know about them.
and I'm ashamed of them.
ashamed for bearing those thoughts,
ashamed for feeling that way.
now that we're here,
now that we've come this far,
just hold on.
holding on.
it doesnt even matter anymore.
what I need to learn now is, letting go.
so what if everything turns out just the way I predicted.
it doesnt matter anymore.
come to think of it, nothing really matters.
I'm scared I wont be able to trust anymore.
trusting seems so hard nowadays.
I lost all my communications skills.
I dont know why, but it hurts.
numbness.
slowly numbing everything.