I dont have the qualifications to go through this.
it shouldn't be me, I dont deserve it.
whenever I think something will be fine, it will not.
it's just me,
my own problem,
something I have to deal with myself,
something I need to overcome.
what's the point of passing the test if I dont deserve to be passed.
sorry to those people who had to bear with my emoing/ pekcekness just now.
as I said, it's my problem, and I did felt like shit for not doing it myself,
but nevertheless, thanks alot.
really, whats the point of setting standards for yourself if it cant even be met.
and how could I tell.